So I have decided to defer the year, and go back in September after I get medical help. I rang my parents and begged them to come get me last Thursday and they did. I had no intentions of deferring the year at all just needed a proper hug. However, I got home and then realised I was becoming quite dark in my thoughts and was on the verge of doing something stupid. Things got pretty dark the day after I decided to defer, I lost all hope, aims, friends I am not going to lie I didn’t know if life was worth living any more. However, I am a cup half full person, you break a leg I will say at least it wasn’t both. The following day after realising I can just visit uni next year for a few weeks at a time and have the opportunity to get myself healthy, I have slowly begun to pull myself out of it but its going to take some time. Hopefully this will be the worst post I write and that from now on they will be more positive!
I went to the doctors yesterday and saw a lovely DR who has referred me to someone specialising in anxiety which I hope will be really useful.
No comments:
Post a Comment