Developments

I called the number given to me by the doctor and it turns out I wouldn’t be able to get any treatment till December/January which is getting pretty close to my exams and would mean I couldn’t get back into lectures and would miss out on uni life for ages :(

However, my grandparents came up yesterday and forced me to go back up the uni to see if they could help me. I went to the emotional wellbeing team and was very lucky to be able to see a mental health nurse. She at least told me the only way to get other anxiety and panic attacks is to keep putting myself in situations I feel uncomfortable in and staying in there. Well that sort of feels like standing on a railway track and playing chicken with a train right now. She has said she would talk to me next week and I just beg someone will offer me CBT soon.

I have been out with my grandparents into public which has helped and I have come back home feeling better, however, I still feel very vulnerable in many situations from being in the car to siting having food in a public space.