Doctors

Frome Doctors

I eventually got myself to the doctors, this was really hard as I meant going outside and sitting in a waiting room where I struggled to stay calm. I got seen and have been put on beta blockers (Stops the heart beating to fast) and put forward to have cognitive behavioural therapy.

Back to Uni

 

The following day I packed up ready to go back to uni. The car journey was horrendous, despite being on medication I was having panic attacks for the first two hours of the journey due to the worry of leaving the safety of home. Once past Birmingham I began to relax. Once in the house I began to panic again despite the fact my parents were only staying a few miles away. At this point all I wanted to do is sleep, and that I did.

 

First Morning Back



 

I woke up in the morning to horrendous panic attacks, due to the medication my vision wasn’t going and I didn’t feel dizzy it just took a long time to regain my normal breathing. After an hour I relaxed again and watched some tv before getting ready to go on a day out with my parents.

 

I love the National Trust

 

We went to a beautiful national trust garden, I didn’t struggled in the car which was good but had underlying anxiousness to having to queue to get in and going into the café. Lucking it didn’t take to long to get in. We first went for lunch in the café I was able to keep myself in the café the full time despite wanting to leave and it felt like a little goal had been achieved. I loved walking around the garden it was really relaxing, which was needed after the horrendous few days I had been through.

 

I couldn’t get myself to go into Sainsburys that evening, but I think I had done a lot that day so didn’t feel bad for sending my parents in. After getting home I said goodbye to my parents and felt relaxed again till about 9.30 whilst watching X Factor, I was getting tired and my medication wearing off I began to feel uneasy and finding it hard to breath as normally as I would have liked. I went to my room and began to feel better.