So I had a really great week last week, felt a little anxious but was making amazing progress. Then tried to go to a lecture on Tuesday and had to walk out of it due to the shear panic of not being able to breath. Then today once again I feel like I have gone down hill again, walking to Keele I felt really panicky and not in control of my thoughts and breathing. Got on the bus and wanted to get off constantly but forced myself to get to the bus station so I didn’t have to walk home. I am now very terrified about going to my lectures tomorrow and I don’t use that word half heartedly though fear of not being able to stay and getting chucked of my course and having to defer a year. I look forward to graduating with my year more than anything and I haven’t gone through all this to graduate with a load of strangers.
I suppose everyone needs to feel down to appreciate the ups.
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