I was really anxious about travelling back up to Keele, I was scared about getting in the car and travelling for three hours on busy roads, I was worried I would need to toilet on the way up, I was worried if I would be ok leaving home after two weeks and worried I will feel alone and bored at uni which will make me worse.
The Journey
I was fidgety and nervous when I got up and wondered a few times if I wanted to go at all, but I knew I had to bring all my belongings home. I went to the toilet about ten times in the two hours between waking up and leaving but it was just how I dealt with the nerves. I finished packing and I set off on my way with my grandparents in the front. I find that I feel better in the back of the car, I don't feel I am being watched and can sit in weird positions and not get laughed at. After an hour we stopped in Sainsburys just before getting on the motorway for a toilet stop and drink. I was surprised I didn't feel as anxious in the car or going in Sainsburys. I did use Rescuse Remedy drops before leaving the house and four hours later as they really helped me relax. 
The motorway was hard to be on as all I could see was accidents unfolding in front of me, so just closed my eyes and tried to sleep through busy parts. We arrived a few hours later and I went into the house, I felt surprisingly relaxed just tired from the journey and previous anxiety. I didn't feel hungry so my grandparents went out for lunch and left me for a few hours in the house. I started to pack up my room to see how much stuff I have to try and get back to Somerset and there is a lot more than I thought. After being in the house and hour I got bored so decided to go out with my grandparents. We drove half an hour to a large garden centre, I struggled this time more in the car, I think it was a bit warm and stuffy so I didn't feel I could breath as well and I was tired. Once out of the car I felt a little bit better and was fine until we went to the cafe around half 4, after a hot chocolate I felt like I wanted to sleep, put my head down and my vision wasn't quite right. I was happy with the amount I have faced today and am looking forward to getting a good night sleep
What Am I Anxious About Now?
My grandparents are leaving tomorrow afternoon with car full of my things and my parents won't be picking me up until Saturday so I worry that I will desperately want to go home between these days and can't get home. However, I really want stay to spend my last week at uni and see everyone before Christmas...decision decisions.
On the whole a progressive day.
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