I am an optimistic person and this is one of my downfalls. I am very stressed out about my deadlines as all third years are at the moment, however, I keep going to sleep saying I will work from 9 or work till mid-night tomorrow and get on top of things, but when I wake up I still feel the same, tired, can’t concentrate, dehydrated, tense and keep time checking. I don’t have a temperature and am not ill it’s just my body trying to tell me to chill out. Having a bath really helps me escape for a short while but it’s not enough. Right now I am thinking I shouldn’t be aloud to go to sleep I should be working, and this is another one of my problems I just can’t hide the guilt of not being on top of my work from myself and this is my to-do list:
- catch up with lecture notes
- do the further readings for all my lectures and voice recorded them all to listen back to in the Xmas hols for revision.
- do all of this weeks further reading ready to ask questions in my lectures
- chose titles for my up coming essays and started making some preliminary notes.
- complete my assignment due Friday a week ago so I could have got it checked.
- finish my dissertation literature review and handed in the first three sections as a draft for marking
- read around all the areas in my lectures I didn’t quiet understand or interested me
- sort my bag and made a lunch box for tomorrow
- Skype my family
- make and send a birthday card
- undertake at least an hour of exercise three times a week
- read all my information about panic attacks
- sort through my dissertation results
- sort my other list of to dos that I don’t fancy blogging
- meet up with friends who need support themselves
- put away my washing
- learn different ways to relax
- read my book I bought
- sort my calendar
- Skype my friends
- etc
Yet everyday I wake up I managed to do about two hours of the 8 I would like to be doing.
Well I feel better for making that list :D let’s hope tomorrow I get work done!!
On the positive my panic attacks have gone and I just get racing thoughts which I can control through breathing exercises and visualisations.
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