First Day Away From Home And a Bad Night Sleep

I was pretty impressed that my Anxiety wasn't affecting me to much during the day, I got up late and got ready to meet my Grandparents at 11 who were staying the night to check that I was going to be ok. We arranged to go for a short walk in the countryside which was really nice. I didn't have any overwhelming anxious thoughts or feelings until I went for lunch in a local garden centre. I had my back turned to the crowded room which helped and I took some rescue remedy which helped me relax a bit. Every now and then I would feel a bit funny, like I wanted to lie down and that I was dizzy. It didn't last all the time thoughts would come and go every ten minutes and I would have to use techniques to bring my thoughts under control, and this will get easier once I learn skills through CBT. We then went back to the house to pack the car full of my belongings which my grandparents were going to drive home for me. I didn't experience any problems until saying good bye when I wanted to sleep and felt dizzy again, but this just because of my heightened emotional state when saying goodbye. I was aware that they were my only chance of going home for a few days and it was on my mind would I cope. I was fine then all evening no real anxiety or panic.

Bad Night Sleep

I haven't suffered from not being able to sleep until last night when I initially couldn't get to sleep, then I woke up every hour until five in the morning. Every time I wake up I have to go to the toilet as I convince myself I need it, which is really frustrating as it's cold and wakes me up. I also woke up around two with really high levels of anxiety, I was really agitated and nervous I was going to have a panic attack, I was half asleep and was struggling to cope with the scary emotions. I took some Rescuse remedy and watched a short programme to try to calm myself down and focus which helped and then managed to get back to sleep. An hour later I woke up with the worst dead arm I have ever had it was so painful and I couldn't control my arm. My anxiety quickly led me to believe I was going to loose my arm as I had just woke up and didn't know how long it had been like that. I had seen a trick that you should flick your arm to make the blood flow back into it and I ended up over flicking as I couldn't contol it and ended up hitting the wall and my then face. Funny now but at the time really scary. I then managed to calm myself again and went back to sleep. So not the best, however I do realise I need to get myself into a better sleeping routine and get off my iPad about ten and set an alarm to wake up about eight. I think by having a routine I will feel more in control and sleep better.