Slow and steady wins the race

So I left uni at the beginning of December 2013 and it's now the 5th of March, so about three months. I have been ill for two weeks in this time which has set my progress back but It's taken till this week for my anxiety levels to drop. This week I went to the Frome Sunday Market in town on my own, it was hard but I knew I could walk home at any point. It was really busy and on the first time walking round I didn't take a lot in as I was struggling to keep calm. After and hour or so my anxiety levels dropped, the run away thoughts disappeared and I was able to walk around again and enjoy it. I walked away feeling very proud. Two things I noticed was that one my safe point had changed, instead of me feeling I would need to get home if I felt panicky it was actually just leaving the town centre. This feeling makes going places a lot easier as I am not so far away from my safe point. The second thing I noticed was that I didn't fear/visualise being chopped in half if I was to walk under a road sign, I have had this feeling since I was small and going to the local supermarket to get sweets, so to not have that feeling is great news. More of these little fears that I have had for years are also subsiding, such as, locking a door and feeling if I dont lock it quickly someone is going to force their way into the house and turning a gas hob on and expecting the flames to engulf me. 

The fear of going out and about and the want to go out and about has now become equal, I am therefore exited to go places I haven't for so long and it feels worth the risk. 

Now this pancake made everything a lot better :D