Going Kayaking

I went kayaking last week as it was lovely and sunny, and said I would start slalom again once it got warmer. Last week I got on really well, I was slightly anxious about getting on water as I might have been at risk if I had a Panic Attack, but I need to push myself into these sitations and see how I react to improve. I actully felt really great, and as it was so warm I really relaxed and enjoyed it. 

This week however, I woke up, looked out the window and saw beautiful blue sky, however when I was walking down into town the weather got far more cloudy and it began to rain. As I walked down into town my vision went really funny, I felt was if I couldnt conentrait or focus on what was around me. If anyone has fainted it was similar to what you would see before you passed out. I thought to myself that it was going to be really stupid if I was to get on the water as I would really be putting myself at risk but I thought I would take it step by step. My vision got even worse when I got to the Frome Canoe Club, Club House but it was similar to my vision at the height of my anxiety and knew I needed to push myself. Still unsure if it was anxiety or illness I got ready, when talking to a fellow slamonist in the changing rooms it got so bad I could barely see and this really did worry me, however, I was about to get on the river so put it down to that. I got on the river still thinking if it was a good idea, but it had improve since being in the changing rooms so pushed on. I did a few runs only doing a few gates so I remained close to the getting out point just incase but it dropped off within a few minuites and I was able to fully concentrate on my runs. I was so glad I went and pushed myself and the sun even came out when I was waiting to be picked up by my parents.