During my few months of heightened anxiety I really wanted to get out and go to Bath shopping, I missed the January sales, and end of winter sales and was really frustrated. I was terrified of going, driving that distance away from home, going into shops, going into changing rooms, using checkouts e.t.c incase I made a fool of myself by having a Panic Attack and lost all control.
However, my anxiety levels have dropped enough that I may feel very anxious but I dont feel like I am out of control of it. I felt fine in the car and was exited to be getting out of Frome, I was really nervious in the first shop, I felt very hot and a little light headed but it quickly went away and I got on really well. I feel my greatest achievement was going in for a bra fitting, I was so anxious, it was hot, I was locked in a room with a young women that would have been very confused if I asked suddenly to leave or looked like I was strugging. I persisted and it did get a little easier the more I was in there, I was just so proud I could do something a few weeks ago would have been a dream. I didnt get tired after a couple of hours which was brilliant as the last time I had gone shopping I didnt manage very long before I just wanted to go to sleep. I went round all the shops I wanted, used changing rooms and tills, a marked improvement in such a short amount of time even if it does feel like forever
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